‘Spent Entire Night Crying When I Was Diagnosed With Cancer’, Says Sonali Bendre

Actress Sonali Bendre says she spent an entire night crying when she was diagnosed with cancer, and her husband and director Goldie Behl helped her cope up with the news. The actress, however, won the battle against high grade metastatic cancer after undergoing treatment in New York.

The actress also revealed that upon her arrival in New York the doctors had said that she had 30% chances of survival.

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Sonali, in interaction with Rajeev Masand, shared that she was diagnosed with Stage IV Metastatic Cancer. The actress further revealed that it was her husband Goldie Behl’s idea to fly to New York for treatment, adding she was not at all interested to leave her family and home behind.

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“I knew that if I allowed fear to overtake me, my journey was doomed. Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. Nothing could vanquish me.” – Cheryl Strayed, Wild. Over the past couple of months, I have had good days and bad ones. There have been days when I’ve been so exhausted and in so much pain that even lifting a finger hurt. I feel like sometimes it’s a cycle… one that starts off with physical pain and leads to mental and emotional pain. The bad days have been many… Post chemo, post-surgery and the like… where even just laughing hurts. Sometimes it felt like it took everything I’ve had to push past it… a minute to minute battle with myself. I got through it knowing that even though I was fighting a long drawn out, draining battle… it was one that was worth the fight. It’s important to remember that we’re allowed to have those bad days. Forcing yourself to be happy and cheerful all the time serves no purpose. Who are we being fake and putting on an act for? I allowed myself to cry, to feel the pain, to indulge in self-pity… for a short while. Only you know what you’re going through and it is fine to accept it. Emotions aren’t wrong. Feeling negative emotions isn’t wrong. But after a point, identify it, recognize it and refuse to let it control your life. It takes an immense amount of self-care to get out of that zone. Sleep always helps, or having my favourite smoothie after chemo, or just talking to my son. For now, as my treatment continues… my visual focus remains to just get better and get back home. It’s yet another test… Student all my life… Learning all my life… #OneDayAtATime ?: @srishtibehlarya

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“It was my husband who dragged me there. I fought with him all the way like why are you doing this.. we have doctors here, why are you taking me away. My life, my home.. in three days, we literally just packed and left an I don’t know what is happening why are we going through this.”

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As we come close to the end of another year, it's amazing to see how much this book club has grown and how I can see tangible effects. After my son hosted his first SBC Live, he's become more enthusiastic about reading, so much so that he has now recommended a book for us! So the next book for #SBC is Half Brother by @kenneth.oppel. I'm really excited as it's the first mom-son collaboration on the book club, and I'm looking forward to exploring this book with you all! #TheFamilyThatReadsTogether #SonalisBookClub @sonalisbookclub

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“But he was just quiet through the whole thing and just focussed. In the day, he was organising and in the night, because New York was awake, he was again organising.. So, I got him to actually crib about the whole thing on the flight. Through the flight, I cribbed. I was venting,” she shared.